On 09 September 2006, I was with myself feeling so lonely and worthless. Once again, I questioned the essence of my existence and then prayed for my death. I was crying so hard at the rooftop as I could no longer contain the agony my heart is bearing. I did not realize I fell asleep. I woke up at around 3 in the morning wherein I decided to go down to my bedroom. The next day, I attended a meeting for the preparation of a city-wide activity. A collaboration with SK Davao. After the meeting, which was held at The Royale House, my YMCA friends and I returned to the office for another meeting. While the meeting was going on, I received an SMS from a friend. I could not believe what I just have read. Although we've never been able to spend more time with each other after our graduation, I still considered her as one of my good friends, as she was the only one who had the courage to tell me that I don't look neat and that my clothes appear shabby because of my carelessness. Still in disbelief, Noel called the funeral home where they say her remains were laid. After which, it was confirmed that she died. I was shocked and fell speechless. She would be celebrating her 20th birthday on the 11th but she left a day sooner.
To a friend who would never be able to read this:
I didn't know:
While i was writing of death,
You were fighting with it.
Though I've got to admit,
that time was able to separate us,
however time was not able to erase
the memories we had shared together.
The last time i saw your lovely face
You were eating with your college friends
In your favorite fast food chain
You smiled; I was glad
Never knowing
That it would be the last
And seeing you would be possible no longer
Should i cry now?
Or should i just give my gregarious smile?
I don't know exactly where you are.
You're no different to a distant star.
May your soul be rest in peace
May the people you had left be at ease
Sleep now dear, sleep now deep.
Shalom old friend, shalom.
Cry no more, tears no more.
Our time right now is over,
Yet may our memories live forever.
Should we meet in another lifetime,
May we have the same regard
May our lives be still in rhyme.
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