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guard my heart, shield my soul
oh my dear self, keep thy control
as the pain ascends
and bursts out in the open
guard my heart, shield my soul
please my dear self, keep thy control

hope may have left, and you in bereft
your invincibility had already been patent
so smile amidst the inevitable dire
eventually you'd get through the wire



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Raincheck please, raincheck.

As this head of mine are filled with questions,
Slowly I am devoured by my self-preservations.

Thus here I am beseeching thee an inquiry:
If affection and destiny would not coincide,
I ask thee --- where dost thou think I should abide?

As I let these tears of mine wash away yours,
Would you care to accompany me in this course?
But why is it that you are fading away from me,
Tell me, is this really how it should meant to be?

Oh no! You just did not know ---
Thoughts of you are now imprinting a smile on my face,
A memory which I don't think I can dare to erase.
It may be so senseless, yet I think it would be my grace -
To be with you, together with me, in that sweet embrace.

But raincheck dear, I beg thee raincheck.
Why am I retreating, I can sense a coming wreck.
I can hear it within, I can hear it loud and clear,
My cynicism's surfacing inflaming the fear.
Oh why, oh why? 'Tis horror is chasing me.
I wonder if I can bear it; let me see, let me see.

With these vexations, I pause and I stop.
I don't think it's possible, I fall and I drop.
Was it you, was it me, or was the feeling just a fancy
It's time for me, I guess, to let go of this fantasy.
So I decided to walk towards my solitude,
Praying and wishing for my own fortitude:
Sooner or later, I will be granted beatitude.

As I trudge alone this rocky journey,
Along the road I have found a key.
At first I was wounded then I was terrified,
How could I ever abandon the little of my pride?
So I asked for Death to be mine for a while
So that I can be freed but not from this life
Liberated from the assumptions that I've been breathing for this time
Assumptions that will surely bring me to my own demise

With messed up thoughts and messed up emotions
I am too ashamed to look at my ruined reflections
I have committed a crime which is too grim for mercy
A crime I have committed which now pulls me back to misery
So this is the phase where I hate myself much
How could I ever concede with the touch?
I have betrayed myself, an act so deleterious
An embarassment that is too grave and serious
Oh no! This is too dangerous!

So raincheck dear, raincheck.
Lest my body will be laid down on that tormented deck.
I plea for the rain to come and be hurry
For only the rain can wash away this idiocy.
As I gather myself from this tremendous fall,
I am now more aware that I can't really have it all.
It's sad, true, absolutely catastrophic!
But no, no --- there will never be a magic.
To my fateful life, save me but not from the tragedy
But from the certainty of my preordained folly.


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as glum as the weather
how can it be?
the feeling of despair
strengthens the melancholy

tis already a familiar phase
a road by now had been taken
only this time is a new face
perhaps a lesson would be ascertain

with this, i breathe my sigh
for soon it'll be outdone
oh when the pain is drawing nigh
but no, it will never go beyond



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keep the music flowing
energy invigorating
taking back my life
out from the strife

as the lyrics hit the notes
the soul within me floats
leaving everything behind
as they retrieve my mind

letting the thought speaks out loud
letting it go against the crowd
as the music goes louder and louder
the fire in me is getting stronger and stronger

dancing to the rhythm of reality
harmony seeping into my individuality
yes, this is how it should be..
life is music, life is free!

^_^

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I know..
'twas just a dream,
and nothing but a dream...
and soon it'd go.

It's funny...
but life is like that,
really like that..
a world of parody.

Looking back...
it's already the past,
and will always be the past...
no need for sidetrack.

Go ahead...
no need to worry,
there's no need to worry...
everything's in good stead.

Just remember...
you'll never be forgotten,
will never be forgotten...
not even in forever.



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What is more tragic
Than being judged
For what you think
Not even the logic
Could ever budge
What's on the brink
When one refuses to see
What is behind reality
And all its mystery
Just leave it be
And let it be
For it is the destiny
When superficialities encompass
The perspective of a being
Blinded by the worldliness
One could never surpass
The obstacles of living
In profound senselessness
If one does not conform
With the standards and the rules
Set by human perception
It is not the eye of the storm
That really pulls
The dull convention
What is unfathomable
Will be and always will be
Better left unanswered
One will soon be able
Find the veracity
Of what has been tampered


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it's November once again
it was way back when
the heart was filled with love
and it couldn't seem to be enough

but when December's coldness came
Forever was cut short then became
the heart was filled with pain
there was laughter in the rain

when the dream turned into reality
there was pureness in felicity
when the reality turned back to nightmare
the heartache was too much to bear

as the ache seems to disappear
everything is becoming to clear
letting go is the only way
for the memories to stay

i seek no more for veracity
leaving it to mystery
a thought i wish to remain
as i go along with the most wonderful pain

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the riddle of resolution
left me one question
was it worth the risk?
marked by brisk

the wonders of romantically inclined
with their emotions declined
was it the work of magic
that led them to tragic

wandering souls then lovers
she cries while he quivers
yet it was not enough
for it could be a bluff

the pain, i reckon
might be the reason
that holds them
in their stem


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so many frustrations
so little gratifications
what is the use of ratification
when everything is a rejection

hush for a moment
silence for a while
seek for fulfillment
even in a smile

it was not supposed to be
despite the treachery
blame not the misery
for thy own catastrophe

hush for a moment
silence for a while
leave the contentment
start to beguile


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I have written this poem the night after having a fun time with team Oakland Athletics. I don't know what prompted me to write this when I was feeling so cheerful before I came home. Few days after, we received a disheartening and saddening news from our team captain --- he will be transferred to another team. Although we were supposed to be proud and happy for him because it was actually a promotion but we just could not stop feeling so lonely knowing that he will be leaving us.

eventually, our paths will part
eventually, our tears will fall
eventually, we'll seek for the start
eventually, we'll lose it all


eventually, the longing will fade
eventually, the fate will be accepted
eventually, we'll forget the shade
eventually, we'll become wretched


the irony of meeting you in me
i wished for the world to stop
the irony of living in reality
i wished for the rain to drop


the pain of building friendship
the pain of building love
the pain that we have to keep
the pain of the above


eventually, everything will pass
eventually, the lesson will be learn
eventually, we will surpass
eventually, we will be stern


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as i stand under the naked tree
waiting for you to come to me
i realized i have learned to defy
your goodness by and by

i sit down and waited for your fall
all the memories i tried to recall
you feel for me when i couldn't do it anymore
yet i have chosen to forget and worst closed the door

i watch as i hear your coming
amazed by the mystery you bring
you came then you fell
i remorse but no one could tell



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Underneath the shadows lie the reality of life
Which created the chaos you think you hide
The light of darkness passed you through with no strife
Thus in the end in misery you abide

You cradled your tears with hands closed
You took your journey with heart stoned
Yet you wonder why the world had posed
Animosity you forgotten you have honed

Let alone the life behind you
For atonement may nowhere to be seen
Just breathe and acquiesce to what seems to be true
Let go and then die with sheen


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the night fell on
yet the clock's still ticking
will you throw the baton
and never mind me peeping

let the wind touch my face
and lull me to sleepin'
would you set into place
in the heart of linen

but the nocturns gave it up
as they fear it's all pointless
with all means dead drop
and the effort becomes worthless

when you get all crossed
and the matter turns ambiguous
you tripped then you paused
the music is now ubiquitous



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Dedicated to my colleagues at YMCA. The poem was written after realizing that sometimes space is important in a bond in order to make it stronger, one just have to accept it notwithstanding the pain of living life apart. Besides, friendship is not just all about being together, it's all about being one at heart despite distance.

sadness fills me in
as nostalgia breathes the air
memories we all built together
came back to me all of a sudden

sweet laughter, bitter tears
it seems not like yesteryears
broken dreams, shattered promises
we never ceased in putting back the pieces

we aimed high
we reached far
but as the time passed by
we became distant as the star

i looked back
but you weren't there
i retraced the track
and found my own despair

as you were moving on
i was drifting away
as i was feeling alone
you were dancing in gay

yet i never stopped wishing
and never failed reminiscing
but the memories we created together
is now starting to quiver

as the agony struck my heart
as i watch our worlds being torn apart
the pain i bear became excruciating
yet i smiled and began accepting

everything changes and so are we
may you find peace and serenity
may the bliss be with you as you trudge your own journey
and may you remember me should again we see

so before i bade my silent goodbye
have me the final glimpse of your genuine smile
the happiness you gave me i cannot deny
i thank you even it was just for a while

so i packed my bags and readied to leave
my heart may be aching it may be in grieve
but life goes on and so must we
now i am ready to face my new story

goodbye to you my cherished angels

reclusive

i am now alone
literally alone

and for this reason
i have realized a lot of things
a lot of things

i am a person of no good
there are times that all i want to do is scream
scream with all my voice
until i can scream no more

some times, all i want to do is run and fly
feel free and touch the sky
even though i am not a swimmer
i wish to swim in the ocean
and explore the beauty it possess

indeed, John Mayer is right
"I am invincible, i am invincible,
i am invincible, as long as i am alive"
and i thank God for giving me such strength
should i die, may my invincibility
be passed through to those people
who are slowly dying and feeling so hopeless

the world is a heaven
it just depends on you
it depends on me
the world is a heaven
we just need to open our eyes
and take a see
the world is a heaven as God had created it

This is not a poem whatsoever
this is just an expression of freedom
an expression of self-liberation
of self-emancipation
and breaking the rules of grammar
is just like flying with the eagles in the sky
like running with the lions in the wild
and swimming with the sharks in the sea

I am free
I am feeling wild and free
I am free
and i just love the feeling of being free
I am free
and i thank God for freeing me
I am free
and i am having the greatest time of my life
no problems, no strife

And for the last verse,
This will not be a terse
I just had finished screaming
I just had finished shouting
It's fun to be crazy
It's fun to be carried away by insanity
After composing this whatever-you-may-want-to-call-it
I will be back in the world of the "sane"
I will speak, i will talk just like them
I may act like them, but hope not to think like them

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