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as glum as the weather
how can it be?
the feeling of despair
strengthens the melancholy

tis already a familiar phase
a road by now had been taken
only this time is a new face
perhaps a lesson would be ascertain

with this, i breathe my sigh
for soon it'll be outdone
oh when the pain is drawing nigh
but no, it will never go beyond



203057myinsecurities200711

What is more tragic
Than being judged
For what you think
Not even the logic
Could ever budge
What's on the brink
When one refuses to see
What is behind reality
And all its mystery
Just leave it be
And let it be
For it is the destiny
When superficialities encompass
The perspective of a being
Blinded by the worldliness
One could never surpass
The obstacles of living
In profound senselessness
If one does not conform
With the standards and the rules
Set by human perception
It is not the eye of the storm
That really pulls
The dull convention
What is unfathomable
Will be and always will be
Better left unanswered
One will soon be able
Find the veracity
Of what has been tampered


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emptiness haunts
as reality flaunts
when will i learn
stop the yearn?
nothing’s new
still in grayed hue
insecurities widening
courage faltering
yet…
the rain continues
smearing their views
the rain comforts
reorganizing all sorts
when did the rain halt
after the storm’s assault
left me crying over the rainbow
where will i go?
can you see it?
can you feel it?
can you hear it?
can you sense it?
the rain piercing my heart
tormenting the part
is it self-inflicted?
or thought-incited?
let me weep in silent
as the rain could not prevent
let me die in secret
while the rain is not set



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comforter

when the rain fill the holes
what would become of me?

not loneliness nor desolation
not even reclusion neither isolation
shall bring me redemption

the chilling winds of the rain
increasing the strain
will they be able to recognize me
should reality unmasks my identity

do forgive me
i am not what i am supposed to be
the rain had failed to cover me
stripping me off my little dignity
which i left hanging in mystery

would it be just
if i blame it all to the wind?
or how about the rain,
my comforter
my consoler
who deserted me
in the time of my need

the rain illuminates
casting a gloomy shadow
the veracity it dictates
is being hoed by the bow
strangling me to death
depriving me of my fantasy
my fantasy of reality
my fantasy of existence
my fantasy of innocence

it is nonsense
everything is nothing but meaningless
am i not the student
of the teacher who is wise but powerless
let alone gullibility
let alone luxury
let alone immaturity
let alone invincibility

can you hear the pitter-patter
of my cries of hopes and anger
can you see the tears
of my selfishness and fears
it is hard to accept
yet acceptance is the last piece
for the puzzle of bliss
but completion is a dream
of the unruffled stream

the clouds of dark met the light
but the rain hadn't stopped
go on with eternal fight
and let the rain be cupped
with remorse and regret
breathe and i shall be freed
from this anxiety i bleed
pour down but don't wash away
let my pathetic traces stay
as it is my greatest masterpiece


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silence

.....

a sudden blast
disturbed the crowd

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silence

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she walks in
an empty wall

.....

silence

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strange faces
inducing fears

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silence

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she stepped out
all broke down

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silence

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i wonder...

love, are you real?
if so, then why can't you make me feel?

your beauty, your marvel
your channel to forever
your infinity, your sublimity

love, please help me to hold on
i don't want to let you go
but i have been hurt many times
and tears had been falling from my eyes

love, i know you are real
although i can hardly feel
i am afraid,
i am losing my grip
this flimsy thread, i cannot keep

my heart's been bleeding
i wish i could make it stop
but it just can't
just can't
i am slowly fading
my faith is slowly vanishing

love, when will you sweep me off my feet?
when will you let my dreams come true?
when will i found you...
i know i have misunderstood you
a lot of times
false alarm, canny traps
and i keep on falling, and falling

would you care to console me?
take me away from this seclusion
i am tired, i am weary
please come and comfort me...
will you please...
have mercy...
just for once...
give my heart a chance...

my desparation, my isolation
i don't mean to be like this
but i can no longer contain their expectation
i know happiness lies only in me
i know that it is a decision
but i can't decide for it...
i can't, i just cant
i have to see you first,
and feel you first...

i wish i could just be a pessimist...
or just be a stoic...
let my heart be numb...
let all my tears run dry...
i no longer want to exist
cause i don't think i can resist
your power, your supremacy...
love, i know you are real...
and it's sad cause i can't feel you still
fairytales do come true, but mine just can't make through...




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